"the rest is just a dream"

Sometimes I think my moment is this: the dream is over.
-and sometimes I will find a way to dream it right back in, I know-
and the end of dream does undrape a reality that could be... delightfull
BUT... I kind of always thought the dream being over meant it was all over.
I'm thinking, I'm knowing... it's not.
I always felt we were
"on the edge of a beautifull thing"
and said
"so come on, let's stay here for a while"
we were not on the edge, back then,
we were ON THIS BEAUTIFULL THING.
I am fluttering around it, around the sight and smell of it, around the image stuck in the back of my mind.
can't really figure out if it's gone to the past,
if it's metamorphed in you, if it's just a different angle now.
a different angle of a different beautifull thing.
or just a different angle of THIS beautifull thing.

it's not unpleasent. it's alway a delight.
it's not denial, it's always a different proposal.
I don't really know what it is
(and a hard as rock part of me thinks you shouldn't be okay with this distance!)

the thing is...
we could be great, amazing friends.
except that...
I'm in love with you.

("It may be hard... but it IS simple")

don't (you, oh dear nobody) take this the wrong way... it's all good, it's always good

HOUSE OF CARDS
(radiohead)

I don’t want to be your friend
I just want to be your lover
No matter how it ends
No matter how it starts

Forget about your house of cards
And I’ll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I’ll do mine

Fall off the table and get swept under

Denial, denial

The infrastructure will collapse
From voltage spikes
Put your keys in the bowl
Kiss your husband goodnight

Forget about your house of cards
And I’ll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I’ll do mine

Fall off the table and get swept under

Denial, denial
Denial, denial
(Your ears should be burning)
Denial, denial
(Your ears should be burning)


I hate not being around. however it is, just stick around