blown

I'm trying hard, to try hard. I'm trying heart. (that's the tackiest phrase I've ever made).
Somehow it's always as if I should be the one to give this a few more days. And it always feels as if I could do better. And as if this is the perfect oportunity for you to get me out of your head... or at least the edge of your head. And the perfect oportunity for me to sink a little deeper. I'm trying so hard to tell myself nothing else matters, but that's long gone, it's just gone. So I get pissed off instead.
What would YOU do?
if I would, you never could, could ya?
So I'm trying to get pissed off every second a little more, and put this past my faith.
all my attempts are pathetic.
And I wished I could ask:
did you take me seriously when I said "don't you fuck around with me, no, don't you fuck around..."
enough with the unasked questions. I gotta get outta this invisible city. And I'm gonna
My only fear is I'm already lost,
and this is not that easily undoable....

and I will bet, if this doesn't, it WILL eat you up.

"think it's funny? well, you're drowning in it too"

bit bitter for my perfect life? yeah, suck it up.


"Hey, let them do it again, yeah
Hey, you said you were my friend
Hey, turn me upside down, oh
Hey, feelin so down
Hey, hey...hey...hey...

You made a fool of me again
Again
Again
Again
Again

Hey, I know I made the same mistake, yeah
I, I wont do it again, no
Why, why you slap me in the face, oww
I, I didnt say it was ok, no
No, no...

You violate a part of me again
Again
Again
Again
Again
Again

Ah, ooo
Doot doot, yeah

Hey, you had time to think it out, yeah (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Hey, your weak will wont help her heal her heart
Hey, Ill bet it really eats you up

Extending part of me again
Again
Again
Again
Again
Again
Again